Though I'm a teenager and with such youth is supposed to come almost magical technological abilities, I am really quite clueless sometimes when it comes to the realm of computers. This fact was made manifest about two years ago.
I was working on some design projects in Photoshop when I decided I was in desperate need of a new script font. Remember when Scriptina was all the rage? From the moment I saw first saw it, I knew we would be friends. I soon fell head over heels in love with the giant loopy letter h's and the gorgeous calligraphic lines that connected each elegant character.
|See what I mean? Isn't it gorgeous? Image Source|
Knowing that having this font in my possession was imperative to my life's success [okay, so maybe not imperative, but it seemed pretty urgent at the time...], I immediately started doing some research. I looked at a few websites and soon realized something: fonts cost money. Money I did not wish or have to spend in my early teenage years. Enter some random free font website with a url something along the lines of freefonts.com. [I'm still not sure if that sounds reputable or fishy....]
It seemed like the angels sung as I found the download package of my dreams-- not one, but two fonts for zero dollars and zero cents? Count. Me. In. Unfortunately, as I'm sure you're aware not everything on the internet is safe. Thus, one should always be careful when downloading files. I knew I should find a more reliable website and run a security scan on the file before I saved it on my computer, but I was busy. I wanted the font and I wanted it right then.
As you can probably guess by now, I downloaded it.
At first, everything seemed fine. Apparently the rules of internet security did not apply to my invincible computer. The grass was green, the sky was blue, and all was right in the world until about a week later.
As fate would have it, the fonts did not come alone. Turns out my version of Scriptina loved partying with viruses and invited them to come along to the fiesta in my hard drive. Over the next few days, my computer started to get very glitchy. My Word documents saved wrong, I couldn't open some of my computer programs, and Internet Explorer was even slower than normal.
Now let's rewind for a few seconds. Knowing of my technological issues, when my computer was purchased my Grandpa also bought me a crazy warranty from Geek Squad at Best Buy that basically covered any repair job under the sun for free. I knew I could just take the laptop in there and they would fix it, but I was scared. I felt like an idiot for not being more careful online. I was too busy to get to the store. I was embarrassed to talk to the salesperson. I was too attached to my laptop--virus and all to part with it for a few days. And the list of my excuses could take up the rest of this post, but I will spare you the pain. [You're welcome.]
I kept putting off taking my laptop in for a clean-up for a couple weeks. I figured It would magically fix itself, or maybe If I had the enthusiasm of this meme character I would some how figure out a way to get it working again all on my own.
As I've thought about this experience more, I realized that sometimes we use the atonement like I used my laptop warranty plan.
When we sin and mess up, rather than repenting and applying Christ's mercy to our lives, sometimes we put it off. Be it shame, guilt, business, pride, or whatever else-- sometimes we let things get in the way of making things right with the ultimate repair technician-- our Savior Jesus Christ.
From the very minute I bought my computer, the warranty plan for it was already in place. Even with this great benefit, I didn't use it when I needed it most. Rather than going to get it fixed right away, I painstakingly dealt with a glitchy computer and ran it 'til it died.
Let us not do this with our souls.
There is no need for us to wallow in our shame, guilt, and pain. The price for our sins has already been paid by our loving and merciful brother, Jesus Christ. We need not be afraid to come unto Him. No matter how big our problem, He will help us fix it. Best of all, his repair jobs are even more complete than any computer tuneup will ever be.
From Alma 11:44 we read:
Now, this restoration shall come to all, both old and young, both bond and free, both male and female, both the wicked and the righteous; and even there shall not so much as a hair of their heads be lost; but every thing shall be restored to its perfect frame...
To quote Elder Holland:
Don't treat the atonement like I treated my laptop warranty plan. There is no need to wait for repentance. The price for our debts has already been paid. Let us come unto Him and be made whole.